` every beat of my heart .

i don't know why but i just feel like blogging today . infact , im already so weak and my mind has not been functioning well .

somehow , somewhere im totally fucked up with *insert name* . sorry , can't mention the name . feel like im being abondon by this person . maybe my mind is not in the right position but i have to tell the truth because i hate to keep it to myself . seriously , you've changed and you don't treat me like how you used to treat me before . why ? im trying to figure it out but to no avail . guess im too fucked up with you that i've decided not to face you anymore . basically , im gonna ignore you because that's the best way to do . im not being mean but i have the right to this and follow what my heart says . if you see me ignoring you at school , that means im referring to you . im sorry if you feel dishearted .*sadsadsadsadsadsad*

did nothing much in school today . for the past few days , got back my Prelim paper . don't know what to say but im just too sad with my grades . year by year , my grades keep decreasing . too slow ? maybe yes . brain not functioning well ? indeed . lol . my only achievement is to do well in my N Level and get out of the school . eventhough if i get below 19 points , i don't want to stay but to go to different school to start a new life and for the better . there's already too much memories in my secondary life that i don't want to reflect about it again . too bitter , too sour that i can't even swallow it through my throat . since i want this year to be my last year , i really have to study hard . i know its easy to say but its difficult for me to do it . just need help from my peeps and im already there . i have to take few baby steps before reaching to the next level . have to BUCK UP , STUDY HARD , WORK HARD and DO WELL !

p.s : to someone , exams .

to the one who spammed me , thank you for spamming cause you make me feel POPULAR . ^^

went to school as per normal . fetched Huda at 7 am . nk protect dier lurh katekan . hehe . me , huda , malee , shahlis and fazrin walked together . saw those bunch of people . ignored and walked away . morning assembly , caught by Mdm Rozana for wearing purple rubber band . sheesh ! i had to ask people for rubber band . mcm nk buat announcement to the whole school . FAKE ! thanks to Rasyidah for the rubber band . lessons was a slack one . N Level coming but we are still having fun in the class . wth . basically , today's day at class was a great one with all my clans . korang gerek la sey !
after school went back with Radin , Hapheez , Hakim , Zai and Khadri . bus filled with minah-minah . jln rayer dok . semangat giler ! enough bout that . went home and got changed . was supposed to meet Malee and Huda at 6.20 pm but i was late . so , took a cab .
in the cab :-
me : erm , jurong west st 91 . near juying secondary .
driver : wah , dekat je pon nk naek teksi .
me : haha , dah lambat lurh .
feel like slapping his face sia . ehk , dah bagos tu aku naek taxi kau , aku bayar !
alright , N Level starts next monday . confident ? 50-50 .
reminder to me : no purple rubber band tomorrow . *giggle* .

p.s : spammer , school day , taxi driver .

WE WON , YOU LOSE !

WOOOHOOO !!!

oh yes , today very the kecohrable . im proud to have a friend like her . even she was being accused , she's patient and stand up for her right . good job , friend ! her family too . they may feel the boiled in their heart but they stay calm to protect their family's image . well done to Muhammad Zaid's family !

to my friend , stay calm and relax your mind . we , your friend will be there for you if they were to look for you again . love ya !

i have nothing much to say . just hope this case will be closed . *cross-finger* . if it is still on , will just give a blur face and ignore . ^^

p.s : we won .

Balek Kampong .... ooo ohhh ohhh ... Balek Kampong !!!

deelafemme[:

the normal place to take picture .

charles angels , kampong version .

sungguh tk anggun .

mak dara plus anak dara .

the fathers and daughter .

from singapore to malaysia .

see the banner ? it wrotes , " rumah terbuka "

referring to the toilet ? *giggles*

before ...

after ...

peace from me to Musilan's family .

kak nurul : the bee

dee : the unglam

take a sip and POSE !

ready .. set .. candid !

again , candid .

do .. re .. mi ..

father mother pon nk bergaya .

my family , my precious .

welcome to Gendut Corner .

ayam panggang .. lelong , lelong !

menu .

the macho husbands . selepas minum " abang power " .

pineapple for sale !!

otw back to Singapore .

fitriah . tido nmpk , tido nmpk .

went out of house after Subuh .

i was too sleepy that i could not open my eyes .

went to fetched Kak Nurul then off we go .

alhamdulillah , tk jam .

we had a smooth journey but had to suffer in a hot sunny day .

sungguh tk tahan !

went to the 1st house .

Wak Mail's family arrived first , followed by my family , then Paman Shukor's family .

went to Yot's (great-grandmother) cemetery .

*recite*

back to the 1st house , Wak Atip's family , Bik Yati's family and Wak Nor family arrived .

had our breakfast .

off we went to other houses .

which i don't know who .

too young to know lurh eh .

hehe .

then went to the last house , just beside the 1st house .

semue dah start ngantok .

had to eat my lunch since dah jemput .

haha .

3+ pm , said goodbye .

omg , i had a nice sleep in the car .

reached Singapore , received 6 mcg-es .

WOW !

sent Kak Nurul home .

and here i am at home updating bout today .

fun enough ?

thank you .

bye ^.^

p.s : kampong's pictures .

SELAMAT HARI RAYA !!!

( sorry , the image quality is not that good )

hey si gadis , yg ayu... * giggle*

with family at crib and Changi Airport .

with mum and dad .

with precious mum .

with nyai , yai and nenek .

adorable nenek .

me and zul .

(mcm aliff ziz)

dearest cousins .

little kids .

big family , mum's side .

as usual , 1st day of raya seek for forgiveness .

every year , i cried .

but this year's celebration was not that awesome like past years .

1st house was grandma's house . ( sebelah ibu)

very the kecohrable during photo taking session .

2nd house was grandma's house . (sebelah ayah)

my family was late and the rest was like already gone .

so , kiss nenek's hand and of course dapat duet raya !

*giggle*

so off to the other house .

infact , 1st day of raya i had a big amount of money .

2nd day of raya , went to mum's siblings houses .

6 house in 1 day .

sumpah , kaki mcm jelly .

i got extra money from mum's bro since my bdae was over .

$10 , babe !

thank you ! thank you ! thank you !

*smilesmile*

insyallah , will be going back kampong on Sunday .

don't miss me , people .

hehe .

balek kampong .. oh ooohhh .. balek kampong !

till here then .
.

p.s : raya's picture , balek kampong .

IM SORRY , MUM ...

something bad happened today due to last tues incident .

me and Kam had to meet Ms Ng early in the morning .

back to class and minutes later was called by Mr Teo .

me and Kam had to go down , seated at foyer .

and i know i have to be suspended from class .

sad but i have to face the consequences .

called mum about it and i cried .

i broke the promise and mum cried too .

whatever the fine is , i have to pay for it .

tapi mane aku nk cari duet ???

i can't let my mum pay for it .

she's jobless and i don't have the heart to ask money from her .

suspension will still be continue till (?) .

but i really hope i can still take my N Level and i don't wanna miss it .

hanging around with Hapheez , Kam , Zai and Fir was a great one .

but maybe i have to stop doing it since mum have been worried bout me .

however , i will still find a time to hang around with them again .

insyallah .

N Level is around the corner .

i have to BUCK UP and WORK HARD .

niwae , congrats to Hapheez for getting TOP IN CLASS for Maths and Geog !

ajar ar , jgn lokek ar .

*smilesmile*

to mum , im sorry to make you cried again .

thanks for the warm hug .

iloveyoutoomuch .

p.s : punishment , im sorry , congrats to Hapheez .

hello to my dearest readers .

today i was waken up by my precious mum .

nagging , " adk , bangon ! kemas rumah ! "

and me , took my own sweet time to bath and do house cleaning .

all done and my room totally look different form the usual .

credits to me !

*clapclap*

went out of my room .

my godness , my hall looks fabulous !

new design and new decoration .

love it so much .

mum morning2 already start cooking .

ader ayam masak merah , ketupat adabi and sambal goreng .

dari bilik boleh bau seh !

too bad kene tunggu buke baru boleh bedal .

*giggle*

oh ya , Umar Partner mcg-ed me yesterday .

shocked yet happy .

its been days he did not mcg me .

basically , he is just my BEST PARTNER !

*smilesmile*

currently listening to Hari Raya song .

my fav Hari Raya song , Ku Pohon Restu Ayah Bonda .

a very touching song that always make me cry to tears .

coincidentally , me and Hapheez Papa wearing the same colour this year .

father and daughter .

gerek kepe .

let's go out together wearing the same colour aite !

*keningupupandaway*

alhamdulillah , Fasting Month ends today and Hari Raya starts tomorrow .

tomorrow , new clothes , new shoe and new bag .

and of course , DUIT RAYA !

yes , every house will flood due to flow of tears .

believe me , i will cry too .

*laughing*

since Hari Raya is tomorrow .

i would like to wish all Muslims ...

SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN !

" andai aku membuat kesilapan besar ,

inginku menghulur sepuluh jari jemari memohon maaf "

p.s : house cleaning , Hari Raya .

HAPPY 16TH BDAY , SHIYKIN !!!!

our sweet little bday girl , Nurashikin Bte Jasmani !

may your biggest wish come true .

all the best for your Prelims and O Level .

have a blast on your special day !

hello earthlings . today morning after fetching lil sis from school , followed ibu to market .

mcm mak2 lurh pulak aku nie . back home and Bik Noi came .

since TV is back from repair , watched ' BOHSIA ' again . mum said its boring .

mane tak boring . tgk pon tidak . ape saje je lah mak aku nie .

went geylang with aini since lynn and ayul couldn't make it .

went round and round just to search for my bag .

1st Bazar , 2nd Tanjong Katong , 3rd Joo Chiat .

then back to Bazar again . sumpah kaki dah mcm jelly .

then saw Ijan and Ain . they helped me to search for my bag .

tada , dah jumpe ! thanks to both of you .

travel back home , went to JP as aini wanted to buy necklace and bangle .

oh ya , saw Angah today but i looked away .

haha , how bad am i .

reached home , landed on my bed . few more minutes to buke .

mum cooked macaroni today . sedap , doh !

and here i am now updating my blog .

currently chatting with Hapheez Papa and Khalidah Hawt ! ^^

to Khai Sayang , sorry for not meeting you today .

i know that im supposed to meet you but i came back late today .

we meet some other day aite .

i know you're sad but i hope you understand .

you will get what you want from me as soon as possible alright .

*keningupupandaway*

i love you , guyfriend .

p.s : happy bday , geylang , im sorry .

hello readers ! just came back from school . tired plus sleepy . yet , here i am updating my blog . as usual , went to school with bestie and shahlis . and of course , im always the early bird . haha . otw to parade square , remembered something . i forgot to bring one of my stationary . going round the school asking if anyone can lend me . NONE ! then asked from this sec 1 guy . still no . lepas tu sempat pulak mintak number aku . mentang2 that time dalam bus tk sempat kasi . ish3 .
off to the hall . 1st paper was Maths Paper 2 . no confident , FAIL will definetely be the answer . *giggle* . thanks ar , the paper so EASY sia ! [ sarcastic way] . next paper , Chemistry . i did not even studied this subject . cause i hate this subect and i don't even understand . MCQ was ok but Paper 4 not ok . haha . i kept lying my head on the table while doing . and stupid nose , kept sneezing . URGH ! feel like pulling out my nose and wash it . muahaha . 30 seconds and done !
went home with bestfriend , lynn and ayul again . huff and puff . then off i went with bestfriend . tomorrow maybe i will be going Geylang with lynn and ayul . " geylang , sipaku geylang ... GEYLANG ! " . heh . one more thing for me to buy and that's it . ready for HARI RAYA ! 3 more days to hari raya . oh , seronoknye ! *keningupupandaway* .
today will be breaking-fast with bestie since yesterday im not able to meet her . will be breaking-fast at coffee shop . nk mahal2 buat pe kan . so yeah , meeting her at 6.15 outside school . gonna have fun tonight !
and yes , Hapheez Papa kept singing Isabella song . irritating but yet nice voice .
F A K E !!! haha . joking only lurh . no offence .

p.s : papers , break-fast .

hello readers .

had geography paper just now .

last minute study yesterday nite [duh !]

and last minute study at school

=.=

at hall , i was like shivering .

trying to recall back what i have studied .

got the paper , 17 pages !

melampau doh !

luckily 1st question im able to answer .

the rest , im abit lost .

as usual , there's blank .

not that im lazy to do but i just can't think of any answers .

get it ?

9.30 am and , STOP WRITING !

thank god it over .

conversation between me and jastine :-

jastine : section A you do what question ?

me : huh ? must do both what .

jastine : no ! choose one only .

me : really meh ? shit !

jastine : ya . section A one question , section B one question .

me : oh shit !

ini lah budak yg tk bace instruction .

mistake learned !

*keningupupandaway*

after paper went to central .

with bestfriend , lynn and ayul .

i withdraw $200 from my account as ibu wanna borrow from me .

kesian ibu tkde duet nk beli barang raya .

see , im such a good daughter .

*winkwink*

went back with bestfriend .

poor ayul had to wait for lynn .

lynn went to thread her kening .

back home , gave ibu her $150 .

another $50 i kept for myself .

S H O P P I N G !!!!!

today break-fast with family at Jurong Point .

felt sorry for bestie as she have to break-fast without me .

sorry , bestie .

*sadface*

bestfriend , bestie , shahlis , lynn and ayul have become part of my life .

they rawk my socks and shake my ass of f !

not forgetting , hapheez papa .

he rawks too !

^.^

p.s : money , peers .

HAPPY 16TH BDAY , SALLEH !

happy bday to you ,

happy bday to Salleh ,

happy bday to you !!!!

may all your wishes come true and all the best for your Prelims and N level .

its 12.38 am and im still awake . was supposed to do revison for tomorrow's paper , Geography but i feel tired . will continue studying later after updating my blog . well , today's paper was super HELL . manage to do some question but the rest was like , URGH ! im dead if i failed these papers . important subject , mind me . LOL . in fact , its not too late as i still have my N level . im so gonna study hard for N level . play hard , work hard ! heh . JYSB will be going KL on (?) . should i go or should i not ? let me think bout it aite . tomorrow's paper will finish at 9.30 . so fast , so good . have to go back to revison . gdnite readers . maybe gdmrning readers . (:

p.s : happy bday , geography paper .

Pictures taken with Malee Bestie ! (:

Sorry for not updating for quite a long time .
Been busy with Prelims and 'N' Level .
*sorry no tagboard at the moment*

hello peeps , sorry for not updating .
i have no mood to post plus there's no interesting stories .
school life have been that , WOW !
really enjoy myself with Bestie nowadays ; my super rock !
i don't know why but i have been feeling down and weak .
maybe due to some problems i have been facing or nervous bout 'N' Level .
not forgetting my other clans ; Bestfriend , Huda , Umar and Farhan .
they make me laugh day by day .
*one big smile*
yesterday watched Bohsia at Bestie's house .
gerek per cite , mat rempit babe !
all the "dok" and "wey" .
that's what me and Bestie have been using .
nk join ?
*tongue's out*
will be studying at KFC with Huda , Bestie and maybe Farhan .
before that , must break-fast .
hehe .
before i forget , today is my cousin's bday .
HAPPY BDAY , MUHD ARIIQ !!!!
continue to rock the Musilan's Family aite !
weeee !!!!
'N' Level coming real soon .
*heart pumping*
work hard is a must .
but frankly , im too tired to study .
let see how .
lol .

p.s : study , KFC , tired .

dearest boyfriend , with love 17092010 ♥

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